We're still in the hospital. We're staying here so they can monitor him. The blasted doctors insisted on seeing me as well. The love of my life could be bleeding internally and you want to give me a check up!!!
Aparently I looked shocked. Well why the hell wouldn't I look shocked?? Some bastard (or bastards) thought it was 'ok' to rape my boyfriend!!! Of course I'm going to look somewhat shocked!! For Pete's sake people. Ever heard of Natural Reaction?? And they tell me to calm down! Why the hell should I?? Those stupid bitches are still roaming the streets! What if they did this to someone else too?!! That would be fucking horrible! Breathe, Gabriel...breathe. It's kind of pathetic when you have to remind yourself to breathe. But good god! I can't stand the thought of them toying around with another helpless victim. Seriously! Inhale....exhale. And then they say that I should come with them. The world was black. I woke up next to Foster with no remembrance of how I got there. It was pleasant though. I'll write a post about this cause I really think I could use a reminder of the happier moments. And there are some memories I don't ever want to lose. Now that I'm calm (ok calmer)...
Foster's mother and his brother, John, have not arrived yet. Their flight was, unfortunately, canceled. I know John hates me but I still hope he comes. Not for me, for Foster. Foster's doing as good as can be expected. He's gone through a lot though. He doesn't breath normally. He always sounds like he's panting. That and the nerves in his lip have been damaged so talks sorta lopsided. His...um...lower...body is going to take some time to heal...I hope it doesn't hurt him too much. It's really sad seeing him this way. I hoped that I would be the only one scared that way...but now he's
....he's broken too....
I need to fix him.
I have to fix him.
He didn't deserve the pain, I did. They must have known that hurting the one I love would hurt much worse...so much worse. It's so very sad, and depressing, knowing that I'm the reason...
The reason he's broken.
Gabriel.
Gabriel,
ReplyDeleteFirst off that was beautiful.
Second, STOP BLAMING YOURSELF!
Third, enough with this depression! You are a wonderful person, thoughtful and kind, loyal and helpful. You just don't know how to act some times and you can't blame yourself for that, your father was a total jackass to you and your mother didn't really give a damn.
Fourth, you are considerate, I love that the most about you. The way you hope that no one else gets victimized it's really thoughtful of you. I know I'd just be thinking about my love, but you thought beyond that, to the rest of the world. It's really noble of you! And I just wanted to let you know that you're a great person to be around despite what all the star bellied sneetches in the world say. You're perfect! Foster's a lucky man! :D
Do I know you? :D
ReplyDeleteIf I wasn't so busy being creeped out I'd say thanks.
No. You don't. I'm a friend of Foster's.
ReplyDeleteAnd you're welcome
ReplyDeleteThat was a pretty awesome Doctor Seuss reference by the way. I thought I was the only one who said that.
ReplyDeleteAs soon as I get my ass over there I'll make sure to stop by and meet you. You seem like a really nice guy. Foster talks about you nonstop! Seriously.
ReplyDeleteMe: How's the weather down there?
Foster: When we woke up today Gabriel was hopping in the shower when he noticed the toilet was frozen! The goddamn toilet!!
Me: How's you day been?
Lots of disgusting smooching in the background.
Foster: Gabriel is fucking delicious!
I did not need to know that by the way.
And looooads of similar incidents.
Does he ever talk about Dexter?
ReplyDeleteAll the fucking time. It's starting to get on my nerves a little. But hey, at least he's happy.
ReplyDeleteGabriel...that was...BEAUTIFUL! You made me cry... :'(
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry.
ReplyDeleteNothing to be sorry for.
ReplyDeleteBut I made her cry!
ReplyDeleteYou wrote what you feel. There's no shame in that,
ReplyDeleteI didn't mean to make you cry. :( I'll make it up to you. I'll write my next entry now, okay?
ReplyDeleteGabriel, you don't have to do that. You and Foster get some rest. I hope that those sick freaks get caught and thrown in jail!
ReplyDeleteThey have already found them.
ReplyDeleteGood. It's off to jail for them!
ReplyDeleteI hope so. Most of the other evidence is purely circumstantial and they aren't sure if they can build up their case against them.
ReplyDeleteThey'd better!!!
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