Good news.

I've got good news...my tumor is almost completely gone. I went in today and they did a brain scan doohickey to see if I was improving at all and I am recovering. My head is still swollen. I did radiation again and I'm now bald. I don't look that bad bald if I had my eyebrows I'd look much better but it's not that bad.

I have cheated death once more.

I still have a bad headache and my arms are still pretty weak. I can hardly pick up a pudding cup...I feel like such a wuss.

My hearing aids arrived today. Snazzy black hearing aids. They aren't the big bulky kind they're the tiny ear plug sized ones. I put them in and wallacazam I can hear perfectly.

I went to Taco Johns for the first time. I'd give it a 4/5 the food was good but the staff kept yelling out random stuff like pink flamingoes and then they'd start laughing hysterically about it. It was annoying.

After that I walked to the mall to get some circus peanuts. I am strangely addicted to them. I walked through the doors and went to sanitize my hands in the restroom. I walked in...there was a weird old dude staring at me...it was strange. I walked out and he followed me.

"You didn't wash your hands." I said as he stood beside me.

"You need to leave."

"Excuse me?"

"You need to leave NOW."

A lot of people were staring at me.

"NO you got to leave NOW!" I shouted.

"Sir are you alright?"

An older lady grabbed my arm.

"I'm fine. This man was just about to leave." I pointed at the old creep.

"There's no one there." She led me to a couch.

I sat down.

"I can call someone if you need help."

"Yeh I'm sorry about that."

She handed me an old cell phone.

"Thanks, but my ride should be here in a couple minutes." I lied.

"Okay...well you have a nice day." She walked away.

I smacked my head against the vending machine.

I walked away angrily. I bought some circus peanuts and sat down on the couch. I opened the bag and ate a couple while watching people.

Person A blonde hair, green eyes, late thirties...I'm guessing she has 3 kids and a almost ex husband...also the way she shook hands showed that she is hungry for power and probably has a high paying job like a lawyer.

Person B Black hair, brown eyes, early twenties...I'm guessing he is lonely and doesn't have many friends, he is a college kid studying for a job of little human contact but also an important job, he's trying to be important to people and the world, he doubts he'll get far but yet he still tries.

I did this until it was time to go to my appointment.

I went to the shrink at three again today. It went something like this...

"So Gabriel how's your day been so far?"

"I'm not dead yet. So good I guess."

"Why would you be dead?"

Wow as if the no eyebrow thing wasn't enough.

"I have a brain tumor. Thus I have no hair...not even eyebrows."

"Any other medical problems I should be aware of?"

"I'm allergic to the following; perfume, cats, dogs, monkeys, horses, hay, corn, straw, green beans, grapes, cherries, pomegranate, apples, bananas, I think that's about it...no wait I'm allergic to handcuffs too." She gave me a weird look so I explained. "I get huge itchy purple rashes all over my arms."

"Any other medical problems?"

"Oh I'm just getting started. Lets see I have schizophrenia, insomnia, synesthesia, I'm deaf in my right ear, I have had 7 seizures, 3 heart attacks, 1 stroke, 8 Asthma attacks, tinnitus, 72 concussions, 2 tumors, a broken leg four times, a broken arm twice, a lot of blackouts, vertigo, 28 broken ankles, 17 comas I once was in a coma for 8 days before my landlord found me in my room when I came to I was starving I'd lost twenty three pounds, I shed a lot, some times the skin all over my body peels off in big sheets, and I'm a pathological lier."

"Are you lying right now?"

"Nope."

"Were you lying when you said nope?"

"No."

"Good."

"So what now?"

"Now we do stuff."

"Like what?"

"Talk."

"About what?"

"Anything."

"Okay."

Long long silence...

"When you're having sex how do you feel?"

"Tired and angry."

"And what about after?"

"I don't know I usually fall asleep during."

"And why is that?"

"I guess cause I'm tired."

"But why are you tired?"

"Because I just am."

"Did your mother suffer a lot of emotional distress?"

"She was a hooker...what do you think?" I thought that question was completely unnecessary.

"Was your dad gone a lot?"

"No he came home every night."

"Now we're going to do a some simple stretches that'll hopefully help you sleep better."

We did some strange stretches and some yoga...I fell asleep on the wood floor.

"You poor guy." She lifted my head up and put a pillow underneath.

"I'm sorrrry..." I fell asleep again.

I had only got a half hour of sleep the night before because I didn't have sex with anyone.

So I woke up again at 7:46 PM.

I sat up...shit I don't have any clothes on. Normally this wouldn't be a problem but I'm at my shrinks house.

"Gwen?"

No answer.

"Is anybody here?"

No answer again.

I walked to the bathroom and found my clothes scattered. I put my pants on and grabbed my shirt.

I heard weird noises so I tried to find the source.

I walked down the hall. There was a large door with a weird looking doorbell. I pressed it a couple times.

A nude goth girl answered the door.

"Hi um I was just wondering where Gwen is. Do you know where she went?"

"Dude I said I'd be right back."

I was so confused.

"Where's Gwen?"

"She left dummy. Don't you remember she paired us up for this exercise."

"I don't know what you're talking about."

"We're supposed to videotape us having sex so Gwen can analyze it."

"Oh." I was still confused.

"So go back to the office and take your pants off."

I did as I was told. She joined me a couple minutes later.

"Where's the camera?" I asked her.

"Right there dummy."

"Oh."

I aligned myself so I was visible to the camera.

"Are you ready?" She acted like this is normal....it isn't.

"I suppose so."

I was being to wonder why she would want me to do this...I thought she wanted for me to not want sex.

So when we were done I put my pants....and then Gwen walked in.

"I'll see you on Monday Gabriel."

"Okay." I put my shirt on and left.

I feel really empty... like there's a hole in me and nothing can ever fill it...I think I need something to hold onto or maybe someone. Either way I'm feeling powerless. I feel helpless and lost.

Daniel isn't going to pick me up because he's gone at a training thing for work because he got promoted. I'm not sure how you can get promoted at a barbershop or what you can get promoted to but I guess it's possible.

I started to walk home.

Home...what is home. Home is where the heart is...then home must be everywhere because last time I checked I take my heart with me wherever I go...I had a feeling I was over thinking this so I stopped.

I approached a bunch of kids running around at a park.

"Does any of you know what time it is?"

"It's about eight thirty." A little girl said.

I noticed she didn't have a watch.

"How do you know?" I was curious if she could tell by the sun like I used to be able to do.

"Your eyes," she said. "They're medium green."

I thought that was just plain strange.

"What if my eyes were two different colors?"

"Then you probably just woke up."

"Well thanks." I walked back to the path home.

That was weird. I walked to a store and checked the time. She was right...that was really strange.

When I got home I did some research and found nothing on the matter except loads of dumb ass myths. According to Wikipedia eyes can change color when experiencing strong emotions.

I looked in a mirror and tried to feel emotional...it didn't work. I looked at myself in the mirror and after about a half an hour...my eyes turned dark brown. I can't tell if it was because it was ten or if I changed my eyes due to emotion. Either way it's weird.

I went outside and was strangely compelled to stand in an alley...so I did. I'm not sure why.

A strange dude pulled up.

"Hop in I'll give you a lift." He said in a gruff voice.

"Nah I'm not going anywhere."

"I insist."

"Dude back off." I was getting angry.

"Your loss."

He drove away.

I sighed. I'm starving I haven't ate anything since 1:00. Noodles sound good. So I walked to the nearest noodle restaurant. I really like walking. I was surprised to find one that was open.

I ordered noodles...I know it's so surprising...I went to a noodle restaurant and ordered noodles...woah.

I ate the noodles....once again so surprising.

I walked home and laid in bed for a couple minutes. I did the stretches and yoga thing and fell asleep.

This was supposed to be posted yesterday but the power went off in my apartment.